Live the question

I’m considering a major and difficult course correction in my life. In this time of transition it’s easy for me to get caught up in my own circular thoughts and worry. I keep trying to think my way forward while still clinging to the familiar and knowable. I know deep down this is not the way. The only path forward will be through letting go and trusting in my ability to adapt and find what is best for me.

There are two quotes that come to mind as I’m facing this situation. The first is from Albert Einstein and you’ve likely heard it before. I know it is quoted often, but I still like it and I’ll post it here again because it is so relevant to me now.

The significant problems we face cannot be solved at the same level of thinking we were at when we created them.

— Albert Einstein

The second quote is from Rainer Maria Rilke of whom I have only recently become familiar. I started reading a translation of Rilke’s Book of hours : love poems to God last month and I love it. The poetry is amazing and I love how it speaks to me and captures so much truth and feeling in so few words. I don’t speak German but the original text is next to the English and I like to read it too. I don’t understand a word, but the rhythm and pattern in the original language is so beautiful. I know I am missing so much depth and poetic genius in the translation. I’d love to hear some of my favorites read in German by a native speaker.

Here is the quote (though not from the book cited above, it is from another of his books, Letters to a Young Poet).

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.

— Rainer Maria Rilke

Strange Pull

Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.
— Jalaluddin Rumi

I’ve been feeling the “strange pull” for years.

Every day I grow closer to being ok in letting go my iron grip of control. These last few years have knocked, stretched and pulled me in uncomfortable ways. Through this I’ve seen tremendous personal growth and progress. I am grateful.

It is clear to me now that my full potential will never be realized as long as I stay in my current circumstances. Until I’m willing to take that leap of faith, trusting what my heart yearns for is right, I will forever remain as I am now — comfortably unfulfilled.

Repaying my debts

Charles Lillard was a poet, historian and lifelong student of the Northwest Coast. I first ran across the following quote in the book, The Golden Spruce: A True Story of Myth, Madness, and Greed by John Vaillant. It really resonated with me then and does so again today.

To read means to borrow; to create out of one’s reading is paying off one’s debts.
— Charles Lillard

I’ve spent much of my life with my nose in a book or computer screen reading and living vicariously through the words of others. These readings have shaped so many of my thoughts and emotions. Their words have become such an integral part of me it is hard to pinpoint the origin of my deeply held opinions and attitudes. I owe much of my outlook on life to their influence, and do genuinely feel a debt is owed. The words and stories I’m sharing through this blog are intended as a start towards payment of this debt with the balance coming through the application of these lessons to how I choose to live each and every day.

I love to problem solve and revel in the crafting of solutions to problems with what I make with my own hands. It is my dream to somehow marry my love of making with my love of mankind and to find some way to lift us all through these efforts.

Stay tuned. I think good things are coming our way.