Something feels wrong

I recently watched the excellent documentary ‘Living on One Dollar’. The film documents the first hand experience of two young Americans that spend two months in a remote Guatemalan community. The iron grip of poverty takes on new meaning as they experience these trials and struggles first hand. It was deeply moving and I have reflected on it many times since watching.

My initial take away was a deep sense of gratitude for all the advantages and comforts I have in my life, both past and present. It was also sobering to be reminded of just how large and diverse our world is. I live a pretty sheltered life here in my Pacific Northwest home. So much of the worlds diversity, both the beautiful and the distressing, is hidden from my view.

One story in particular pulled at my heart strings. A young woman recounted her desire from an early age to get an education and train to be a nurse. She told with quivering lip of her sadness at having to quit school at 6th grade to work in the fields. Her parents had to choose between paying for her to attend school and putting food on the table. Tragic.

I was also touched by the genuine happiness and the generosity shown by so many in the village. The smiles were never ending and many were so willing to share what little they had both with their American visitors and with others in their community. One mans wife fell ill and was in desperate need of medical care. With no means of his own to pay for this he asked a friend for help. This man of very humble means paid for the medical visits, medication, and transportation with no expectation of repayment.

As I reflected on my own income, and how these people subsist on about 1 dollar a day I was struck by the fact that I earn more money in a day or two of air conditioned typing than they do all year at backbreaking labor. I feel sadness at their lack of basic necessities and healthcare. I wouldn’t even miss the few dollars it would take to literally make all the difference in not just one person’s life but a whole community. Something just feels so wrong about this.

I am left wondering two things; What could I do to help, and what could I learn from these good people. I don’t have the answers yet to either of these questions, but I hope that I soon will.

Optimistic

Let me start by saying that I, like you, am appalled by the 2016 United States Presidential election. Someone will claim the winning ticket in this fiasco, that I know. It doesn’t matter on which side the chips fall, we the American people, and those affected by the actions and policies of the United States (pretty much everyone to some degree) will lose.

It seems the media’s role is constantly bombarding us with eyeball grabbing headlines announcing the latest in human depravity. I’ve seen this going on for as long as I could read, and I expect it to continue for as long as the media as we know it exists. Its just the nature of the beast and it will do little good to fight it.

Now having said all this, I’m going to go out on a limb here and say that I think the world at large is heading in the right direction. I don’t believe for one second that the headlines we click and follow are representative of the human condition at large. I think most people are decent and honest with similar values as my own. Many are misguided to be sure, but the majority I think have a good heart and are willing to lend a helping hand when given the opportunity.

I’m honestly not entirely sure were this optimism comes from. It’s just something deep in my gut that tells me its all going to be ok. It’s all going to work out. Eventually, the power of goodness and love will win out. I think humankind is making great progress towards eradicating so many of the blights and ugly parts of our shared history and culture. We still have a long way to go and many social injustices left to conquer but taken on the whole I believe we are moving in the right direction.

If you look at the rate of technological innovation in the last hundred years the exponential increase in human capability and its impact for good on the human condition is staggering. I believe a similar revolution in social and human relations is on the horizon too. We may not see that exponential growth in my life time, but it’s coming. I really believe that.

I was thrilled recently when I ran across a bi-weekly newsletter from Future Crunch. This amazing newsletter delivers a few uplifting paragraphs on what is going well in the world and is then followed by a slew of links to articles and essays proving the point. The links fall into three categories; Good news you probably didn't hear about, Science fiction headlines, and Stuff we loved. All good stuff (!) and exactly the kinds of things that give me hope that this unshakable feeling that the world isn’t so bad after all might be right. I you haven’t subscribed already I encourage you to do so. You won’t regret it.

finding truth

hands on keys, the door unlatched
words all jumbled, without a stack
heart is open seeking expression
brain on fire but a different direction
separate, each is no more than intention
together, they lead to soul creation
the welding link between these two
remains hidden to all but a few
the secret you see is not in the sauce
the secret you’ll find can not be bought

the secret is within and unique to each author

deep within it will always remain
until we are willing to endure the pain
break down the walls, set it all free
that is the only way your truth will come to be

Why eat mindfully

The majority of my work day is spent sitting on a chair in front of a computer screen pounding out software code. It is mentally taxing work, and work that frankly I’m finding more stressful than rewarding lately. As the day rolls on I feel my body and mind winding tighter and tighter. Though it isn’t physically taxing work I still leave feeling tired and drained and with little energy or motivation left for the things that are most important to me.

My early morning practice of meditation and mantras is helpful, but too often the grounding and clarity I feel then has evaporated by lunch time. Mindfully eating my mid day meal is a great way to detach from the stress of work and return to mental clarity and focus. Choosing to s-l-o-w d-o-w-n and be fully present for the meal results in benefits beyond my initial expectations.

  • I enjoy the food I am eating more
  • I am more selective in the foods I choose to eat
  • I feel genuinely satisfied after only a fraction of what I used to eat for lunch
  • My mind has had a rest and is ready for more.

I’ll probably be posting a lot more about this later, but for now, just give it a shot. The real key is just to slow down and think about what you are doing while you are doing it. Keep your focus as close to the food and process of eating it as you can.

Mantras

I've been going through a lot of changes in the last few years. I generally don’t handle change and uncertainty very well and so I’ve experienced a lot of stress and anxiety in navigating these events.

One way I learned to cope was taking long walks outside, and what I discovered over time was that these walks became even more valuable if I had a dialog with myself about the worry I was having and what was causing me stress. In forcing myself to audibly articulate the ideas and thoughts bouncing around in my head I was given the clarity and presence of mind to sort things out. The act of giving voice to these thoughts made it much easier to identify which were off base and harmful and could thus be discarded, and which were actually deserving of my time, attention, and focus. Unfortunately, I also found that I was too quickly forgetting the insights I had just gained! I then found myself returning again to a long walk and coming to the very same conclusions after another arduous week of worry and stress. There was definitely a recurring theme to these insights, and while on one of my walks I had the thought to develop them into a set of mantras. My intention was that by repeating them regularly I could keep myself on track with what is important to me in the life I wish to live.

The mantras that follow evolved and matured over a number of days while talking with what I refer to as my guides. As mentioned on my about page I believe in forces outside our current understanding that help and guide us through life. The true nature of these forces is not important. It could be any number of things; God, angels, spirits of our departed loved ones, our inner being/source, or simply our own subconscious mind. Whatever label or explanation you choose is fine and not really important to the discussion here. What is important though is that there is power to be found outside the everyday conscious mind. I believe that tapping into that power is what helped me to arrive at such a concise set of mantras that perfectly encompass my core values and embody the grounding principles that help give me focus. Repeating these mantras daily as part of my morning routine has proven invaluable. There are 6 mantras altogether and they are as follows:

  • I believe that my guides and the universe can help me reach my full potential for happiness and growth.
  • I believe I can have everything I want.
  • I believe I can live a life full of meaning, purpose and fulfillment.
  • I believe it is within my power to remain loving and kind in all of life's situations.
  • I believe it is within my ability to always see a positive path forward and a next step towards the attainment of my hopes and dreams.
  • I believe that I can develop my own unique voice, both written and oral, and that I can share my voice with the world and feel good about it.

I hope that you will take these mantras as a suggestion and a prompt for you to create your own. In times of trial or stress repeat your mantras; slowly and with contemplation. As you repeat each one think about how it applies to your life as it is right now. As thoughts come to your mind are these things you want to keep and hold on to? Is it something you want to change, or discard completely? Listen to the answer to these questions, then do your best to act accordingly.

Thanks and appreciation

I’d like to thank Christa Pell for the inspiration to share these mantras. At her prompting I have started this website and hope to share more in the coming weeks and months.